Each bitter word
I long to say
The memories
I wish would not stay
My bond with you
Was too deep
Your bond with me
Was unspeakably
Shallow
I find your words
Like crumbs left
To follow
I mustn’t
I daren’t
Your words
Leave me hollow
Each drenched
In poison of their own
Sweet, succinct
They drip
From your fingers
Blame me
Blame you
What does it matter
We’re through
You left me
High and dry
When all I wanted
To do
Was die and drown
In you
I was weak
I admit
But was it really
Too much
For a measure
Of kindness
In exchange for lust
I can live
On so little
But you fed me dust
I choked
And revoked you
I’m trying
So goddamn hard
To banish you
From this weak heart
But you keep popping up
In too many
Too many
Too many
Hurtful thoughts
How dare you
Be angry
With me
You took your chances
The same as me
Can you blame me
Do you
Truly?
When all I did
Was attempt
To save me
From you
I laid my heart
At the mausoleum
Of yours
You wouldn’t
Even
Open the door
How long
Did you expect
Me to sit there
Bleeding
Knowing
You
Were inside
Enchanted
Reading
Other words
Who you valued
More than mine
More than me
More than everything
I fucking tried
To let you see
You claimed to care
But you
Put the lie to your words
You walked away
Before I did
You sheathed your sword
So don’t wonder
Why
I’m no longer there
I still care
I still love
But you
You made it too hard
To stay
Your abject dissolution
Your passionate
Indevotion
Were all the signs
I needed to see
You were done with me
Long before
I walked away
Don’t try to say
It wasn’t that way
April 28th, 2014 at 1:07 PM
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