I grit my teeth and bear it
My soul fucking bares it
The need for you extolls
And casts its costs upon
My god damned soul
I know you, the core of you
I see you, every inch
I hear you and I wince
At what you share
With those who could
Not care
Less
Lest you think
Less of me
I hold your heart
Within me
I care like
You don’t fucking know
I wish that you
Would just show
But whatever, right
There is no fight
I guess we just
Drift apart
No end, really
It’s not like you
Would say to me
“Don’t go
I need you
I want you
I’ll meet you”
You are too
Obsessed with you
To ever really
Let me in
To show even
An ounce of care
Like goddamn strangers did
So who am I
Who am I
To you
You must be getting
Sick of this
If you even care
You read
But at this point
I’m not through
With us
Cuz you
you
you
Were just
What I needed
And again
Damn me
I’m laying myself
Bare to thee
In hopes that you
Will what?
Come back to me?
Then what?
Go back to ignoring me
Go back to doing
Being
Only
You
Without a care for me
I never asked
Never would
You to change
How’s that good
But you failed to respect
And what’s worse
You neglect
Three long days
I waited
While my heart syncopated
You knew
You knew
And not a word
Came through
What was
A girl to think
Except we’re through
Every day
Every damn fucking day
I miss what we had
And yet I’m glad
For how can I be
With one who cannot be
There for a minute
There to care
There to show
He’s fucking there
Why the fuck
Why the fuck
Why the fuck
Should I goddamn fucking care
But I do
Cuz I love you
And I hate you
Not that it matters
Anymore
I’ll not beg
Not chase
Just release
You to the life
You wanted to lead
Without me