I haven’t been making good choices where my heart is concerned. Sure, love and sex make for great poetry. The more complicated the relationship, the feelings, the better it sounds in rhyme. And when the pain hits, as it always will, there is nothing sweeter than writing it out. Oh, how we love to read that, amirite? But maybe I should stick with old memories of hurts, instead of making new ones.
Of course I can’t go into details about anything, because … well, I just can’t. But suffice to say I’m sick of the back and forth. I’m not blaming anyone but myself for the emotions I’m feeling. I know I am far too sensitive. I call myself weak constantly. Because of my anxiety issues, chiefly, but also when it comes to love. I love love. I love loving someone, giving to them what I have, what I can. And so I invest myself too quickly and too deeply, even when my head is screaming at me to stop. How often are any of us capable of listening to our heads when our hearts have already made up their mind?
This is one of the reasons I withdrew myself years ago. I couldn’t take the pain I inflicted upon myself with loving others. I don’t want to do that again, withdraw. But I have to be smarter. Cuz I am killing myself with this bullshit.
February 11th, 2014 at 8:41 PM
You were not kidding when you said we had much in common! My dear, sweet girl..your words are so magnificently delivered…so passionate and honest. Thank you! xoxo ❤
February 11th, 2014 at 10:36 PM
Being passionate and honest is hurting me tonight, but I still thank you! *hugs* ❤
February 12th, 2014 at 8:34 AM
So sorry you are hurting! Release it! Let it out! Sending much love to you! xoxo ❤
February 11th, 2014 at 10:18 PM
true – true
and “But maybe I should stick with old memories of hurts, instead of making new ones.”
true
February 11th, 2014 at 10:38 PM
I think I have my hands plenty full of old hurts, lol. Lots to choose from, don’t need to see a new menu. Thanks for stopping in and commenting – means a lot. 🙂
February 11th, 2014 at 10:40 PM
welcomed
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